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aloha! welcome sweet readers(: yati/twenty-years old. deeply misses her late mom♥
HEARTBEAT.

I never knew that I actually have feelings for you. True enough, a sentence could change everything and anything. Maybe,I am at fault too for hiding this feelings from you but I have no guts and confidence to show you how much I treasure and need you in my life.  I am aware sometimes I'm being hypocrite myself but it's okay I shall not rant and explain myself, maybe this is fate that Allah s.w.t has written for us.  I am not angry, just a lil disappointed cause all along I thought you are man of your word. After meeting you, slowly I put my trust in Men but sadly after hearing your contradicting stories, I've lost all my trust and love for you.  I should have known from the start that I am no-where near from her and I should know where I  stand from the beginning.  I'm glad you didn't know about my feelings or it will just be another embarrassment.  nevertheless you will always be in my prayers and thank you for being a pillar of strength me all this while...


love,
Yati-cute.



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FAIZ'S POP+BG ACHIEVEMENT+LIFE

Syukur Alhamdulillah Faiz's Basic Military Training are finally over and four months experiencing it definitely left a big impact on him :) Hearing stories and challenges that he had encountered for at every phases was totally scary especially when he went through for two-weeks field camp but as a friend all I could do was to pray for him and gives moral support. Definitely,to witness his parade at Marina bay last 8 April makes me and Zyla a very proud friends! Infact I am happier for him to hear the news he got posted to the unit that he really dream of! Marha Marha to my gd friend,the best reward for him after the "hell" process I would say. Congratulations Sergeant Faiz :]. & also, congrats to my bestgirl for only-we-know-what ;)

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I was called for an interview for my internship recently and that was the most serious and worse interview I've ever went through! But when I give it a thought, I regret for having those feelings as I should regard them like a "wake up call" for me that I am going to working life soon and that I would hold responsibilities,meaning meeting horrible bosses. )': I've always questioning myself lately and have doubts. School starting next week, I am so gonna cherish every seconds of my student life and stop complaining on the piles of workload. In short,live life to the fullest people! Adios.

working on my goals

Working on my goals- I am not someone who list my goals at every start of a new year because I know it would just be something that will dissapear in the thin air sooner or later. Like what our generation wld say "semangat 5 minit" like that. That reminds me of the story mat jenin :] But when late mom passed away it has shot me to work on her dreams and I commanded my heart and soul to do it for us, our family. Slowly from one goal, it has branch out to some (not to the stream of having tones yet) that I hope to attain in my life. Then, I realize one needs a goal in their life cause it's one powerful tool to reach one's success. My recent achievement was to read 3 english books in a week. I consider that as an achievement simply because since young I've always prefer malay over english novels. My brother is vice-versa though.
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Anways, a month plus to start my final year and lately I am just like one mad woman, finding to secure a place for my internship. God, now I know the feelings of looking out for jobs. NEVER EASY. Apart from them I have finally went to words and excel and start my brother's wedding preparation. HAHAH. I was pretty lucky I have a helpful list which I saw at one of the malaysian wedding magazines (which I happened to flip through while taking my study breaks in the lib) and so I quickly went to the printing room to scan a copy and tadaaa! it helps on the whole process,Syukur Alhamdulillah. Honestly, Abang isn't financially stable yet for the whole wedding while Abah and Nenek are followers instead of a leader ): It really hurts me a lot though but I told myself, I may not be married yet but I want to see everythings runs smoothly Insya'Allah and I thank Allah swt for the patience and guidance he has always given me and also for the kind souls around me. I already got sponsors from my relatives which really cut down my cost. Still sourcing out for caterings and some others, I really hope we cld strike out the major ones soon. InsyaAllah Amin. Till my next update. Am meeting for my coral gfs for dinner, confirm happening esp when there's Nab around. Yabedabedooooo :D

IMPORTANT ONES.



I hate the fact I am putting more weight than it is now (big sigh) oh well let's take it positive, maybe I am too happy with recent news that I passed my exams with good results that I tend to eat and eat to reward myself; all praises to the one above for the strength HE gave me and the people who have faith in me all these while. It wasn't easy,never since the day late mom passed on but I keep telling myself, she's always with me,always.

Anyway I am enjoying my last long holidays to the fullest! And what I've been doing to kill my precious time? Nyehehe Basically been sleeping,doing housework and managed to grab and read some books from the school library also plan for abang's wedding,InsyaAllah. Oh at the same time, I managed to explore some new interesting places in SG s with syiqah. We can just go random places at a random time and find new places and lepak. SG isn't that bored afterall,you know? esp when the Punggol waterway,promenade and garden at MBS is up,we shall have more places to explore and go for a date. HA HA. Oh talking about dates, people around me been waiting for my turn to get attached especially when I am gg to Year three soon where I actually promise them to have one either in my senior year or after graduation itself. Can I just go for the latter instead? hahah. Oh well, I put all my love issues in Allah s.w.t hands and I know he will choose the best one among the ones. :) All I can say, I am comfortable and hope that the one I am closer with now will be the choosen one,InsyaAllah Amin :)
Talking about relationships, when I have one in the future I really hope to be like Syiqah. Let's face true facts. When most people are in relationships they tend to have lesser time with their bestfriends. Your priorities are more or less with your partner but syiqah is different. (I am not praising her just because she's my bestfriend okay,it's a true fact even abang is with me!) Honestly, I do gt attached before and I have lesser time with my BFF's ): I spend most of my time after school with my partner and spend less time with loved ones. I admire Iqah for which she handle so well between family,Iss and her bestfriends. After 2 years of relationship with Iss on 6March,Alhamdulillah not much changes on our friendship. We are still like the way we are! We meet every week, we text most of the days, we spend FB msgs now and then. Sometimes, I feel she's still single you know? hahah. To add on, two things I respect so much is 1. She took the effort to text and go out with us like how we usually do 2. Whenever both Iss and her friends ask her out,she will always go for her friends first. How sweet isn't it? Her believe, Friend is Friend whenever she's with her friends she will put all her attention to them. Of course ISS is super understanding boyfriend but of course we doesn't want Iqah to feel in between and we are glad ISS could adapt with us and infact he have become one of us now! She has set a good example for me and our life are almost at the same route (never ending problems) but we both and my bestfriends are always there to meet me despite Zyla and Zuzu having a hectic schedule (swimming,training,courses,work,trips,school and u know even when Zyla is at overseas, she cld still text me and ask for my update!!) and Faiz with his NS life but still, we all took the effort to meet and catch up on each other life. I don't even know how my life would be w/out my precious ones. I remembered Iqah and Zyla promised mom that they wld always with me and I am touched they still hold on to their promises up till tdy. With them around and my other bestfriends, I know I am not alone. Alhamdulillah eventhough Allah s.w.t has taken my mak from me, but he replaced circle of friends to help me pull through in life. After all, DIA lebih mengetahui apa yang tersurat dan tersirat. Saye redha :)



WHAT LIES AHEAD.




(retail theraphy is the best cure for stress!)


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In less than a month time, I will end my year two and Insya'allah will be progessing on to year three. Syukur Alhamdulillah for making this far despite all the obstacles that keep coming. Allah is great.





Since I've about one year to go before entering the working life (or what you call,"real world") truth to be told, I'm nervous in embarking the new journey hence I hope to gain as much experience within this one year especially during my internship programme this coming september. I do hope that I will be in the field that I am comfortable with (: cause once I've start working,this is where responsibilities comes in( and no more looooong holidays *cries*).




Well, I don't have any plans yet to further my studies but recently I do have plans in mind which I hope to share with you guys one day,insya'allah (: Since my year 3 sem 1 modules are all the killer ones, abang will get married next year and I am graduating soon I've finally set my priorities straight and I keep telling myself to be discipline. So much of duniawi, wanting to be a successful person I really hope I don't forget the ukhrawi cause by balancing both and enquire it, it is then I believe I've succeed becoming an individual. Insya'allah, may all plans goes my way. Amin ya rabbal'alamin!

Radja - Jujur [BOY, IF ONLY I COULD TELL U THIS]


FREEE-DOOOOM

Yesterday marks a week of my confinement *chicken dance* I am already able to walk as per normal but still have to take more precautions as the wounds is still healing. Thanks to daya for coming down to check, change and clean my dressings,feel whole load better now. Since everything is doing fine, with no discharge etc,it was just in a right time that Faiz asked me out infact I was in a double happiness when he suggested to visit maqam habib noh first before we catch a movie. Thanks to the family approval,managed to follow Faiz along*yeay*; Alhamdulillah I've already fulfilled my Nazar.(: Tears of happiness when I perform my sujud syukur, am really thankful to HIM for whatever he has given me. After our visit, we decided to catch a movie; "we bought a zoo", a comedy movie teaching and reflecting how hard it is to be a single father to a two young kids (oh, the young boy is so good-looking and rosie is such a cutie!) but umm, we found it a little too long for such a movie (123 mins) and we were watching at 9.40PM showtime? so yeah,almost knock off after 11PM. tsk. When Faiz drove back hm the beautiful city lights caught our attention, such a great way to de-stress my mind. Must really thank Faiz for the day, wish the rest could join us along InsyaAllah next time we shall plan to watch movie together okays? mucho loves!

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL :)

Alhamdulillah eversince I got discharged,we have been receiving visitors and also, all kinds of good food. Some whom I have not met for so long, glad to see them again and catch up on our simple life :)


Yesterday, I received another visitor which I really look forward to,Dearest Tira! The warmth and long hugs we had described how much we have been missing each other. We had a long talk with one another over many things and tira is tira, sweet as ever surprise me with flowers with a get well soon card, beancurd together with chipsmore biscuits. Thank you,Amiga. Honestly, no words could describe how important she's in my life. I could repeat this again and again that without her prayers,support and confidence in me I wld not be where I am now. Till today, she has been guiding us, giving morale support infact whenever I talk to her there's always a spark to boost up my confidence level in whatever areas I am doing now. May Allah swt blessed my dearest Amiga always,InsyaAllah. After she went home, I opened up her card and read thru' every words of hers. Slowly, I know what I want in my life and to where I shld head to. Life is so beautiful with nice and good friends around me, and I could not ask for more,Syukur Alhamdulillah :D
oh, just want to share with you guys my favourite photo taken with my dearest sister at risah's sis wedding. heheh. We are infact excited in counting days to our not one but two of our dearest bestfriend wedding, InsyaAllah ;)