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Radja - Jujur [BOY, IF ONLY I COULD TELL U THIS]

2012-01-25T16:19:00.001+08:00

FREEE-DOOOOM

2012-01-15T15:46:00.006+08:00

Yesterday marks a week of my confinement *chicken dance* I am already able to walk as per normal but still have to take more precautions as the wounds is still healing. Thanks to daya for coming down to check, change and clean my dressings,feel whole load better now. Since everything is doing fine, with no discharge etc,it was just in a right time that Faiz asked me out infact I was in a double happiness when he suggested to visit maqam habib noh first before we catch a movie. Thanks to the family approval,managed to follow Faiz along*yeay*; Alhamdulillah I've already fulfilled my Nazar.(: Tears of happiness when I perform my sujud syukur, am really thankful to HIM for whatever he has given me. After our visit, we decided to catch a movie; "we bought a zoo", a comedy movie teaching and reflecting how hard it is to be a single father to a two young kids (oh, the young boy is so good-looking and rosie is such a cutie!) but umm, we found it a little too long for such a movie (123 mins) and we were watching at 9.40PM showtime? so yeah,almost knock off after 11PM. tsk. When Faiz drove back hm the beautiful city lights caught our attention, such a great way to de-stress my mind. Must really thank Faiz for the day, wish the rest could join us along InsyaAllah next time we shall plan to watch movie together okays? mucho loves!

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL :)

2012-01-13T15:42:00.005+08:00

Alhamdulillah eversince I got discharged,we have been receiving visitors and also, all kinds of good food. Some whom I have not met for so long, glad to see them again and catch up on our simple life :)

Yesterday, I received another visitor which I really look forward to,Dearest Tira! The warmth and long hugs we had described how much we have been missing each other. We had a long talk with one another over many things and tira is tira, sweet as ever surprise me with flowers with a get well soon card, beancurd together with chipsmore biscuits. Thank you,Amiga. Honestly, no words could describe how important she's in my life. I could repeat this again and again that without her prayers,support and confidence in me I wld not be where I am now. Till today, she has been guiding us, giving morale support infact whenever I talk to her there's always a spark to boost up my confidence level in whatever areas I am doing now. May Allah swt blessed my dearest Amiga always,InsyaAllah. After she went home, I opened up her card and read thru' every words of hers. Slowly, I know what I want in my life and to where I shld head to. Life is so beautiful with nice and good friends around me, and I could not ask for more,Syukur Alhamdulillah :D

oh, just want to share with you guys my favourite photo taken with my dearest sister at risah's sis wedding. heheh. We are infact excited in counting days to our not one but two of our dearest bestfriend wedding, InsyaAllah ;)

Goodbye 11', Welcome 12' :)

2012-01-11T12:42:00.005+08:00

First and Foremost, Happy New Year lovely readers :) May this year bring us everlasting happiness, Allah swt grant us with good health and wealth. InsyaAllah. Some higlights that happened in my life that I love to share with you guys. Happy Reading :)!

27 December 2011: It was Zyla's 22nd birthday and we had a surprise for her and glad she love the present we bought. We must really thank Zuzu for successfully secreting out some infos or else, we wld be clueless on what to buy. Jokingly told my besties to give a hint way few months before their birthday so that things will be easier for us, lol. On top of all the happiness, I was grateful and happy for another bestfriend of mine too who just got engaged with her love of life,Fahme :) Both of you deserve each other and you'r one of my fav couple who is always low profle in every way yet so loving,last long AmalinaFahme!

31st December 2011: Was abang (second,hurrr) engagement with his own colleague, Asilah Rahim. I was really happy for him that this time, hopefully with god willing he has met someone who can guide him along in both worlds (duniawi&ukhrawi). I was pretty touched with a small gestures she has done for late mom yet to me, a very meaningful one. InsyaAllah, I will always pray for their happiness and may Asilah be the one for him in this world as well as in Jannah. Happy Engagement guys, from your cute lil sister ;)!!

6th January 2012: I went throught my very first operation to remove my gallstones together with my gallblader. Truth to be told, it was a painful experience for me which I pray it won't be any second time. Nevertheless, I'm really thankful that I don't need to go for open wound surgery (manually cut) where I know, it wld be a more disasturous nightmare in my life! (Syukur Alhamdulillah). I was really touched with the kind attention and love that came from my circle of good friends. Ya rabb, thank you for giving me such a wonderful friends that I can always count on. They colour my life just like like the beautiful rainbow. Late mom must be relieved on this especially to see how abang take good care of me more than his own life. I was shocked when Fiqah's mom came to visit and the first thing she stepped into my hs was to grab me in her arms and kissed me on both cheeks. That was my first tears I shed aft my op which I cld no longer hold cause I cld feel again the motherly love that I miss sooooo much. Thank you cik ju, ily :) &many thanks my dearest girls (Amigas, D'geng,Solehahs and babengs) for the support esp prayers that you've given me. Hanya Allah swt yang dapat membalas jasa baik anda semua and saye, haryati bte hoderi sayang sangat pada awak semua! Not forgetting Faiz and Farhan, my two good friends for their encouragement and good food, lol. who wld want to send Pizza every week to you and attend to your nonsense craving. Who wld want to go your hs all the way from JB just to send Burger Ramly in the wee hrs? who wld bother to attempt all your cravings and wants? This two guys as well as my gfs wld, that's why my life has always been colourful one eventhough it may not be perfect, but Alhamdulillah I have this people to close the imperfection. And now, I am in 2 weeks MC before my examination. God is testing me, and I took it with sincerity cause behind every cloud has a silver lining :) Good Day Everyone!

2011-08-20T17:14:00.004+08:00

Salam Ramadhan Al-Mubarak readers:)

Time flies so fast that we are left with the last 10 days of Ramadhan! MasyaAllah I will definately will miss this beautiful month, full of barakah and may we meet with malam lailatuqadar. :)) InsyaAllah. Soon after me and zyla finish our period, the normal geng will visit and perform our prayers at Kampong wak hassan again this year. Seronok feeling kampung, heh!

At times I wonder if I have done enough for my self, loved ones and society cause fasting isn't just about enduring from hunger and thirst but there are more of it. I am pretty sure my solehahs remember those volunteering days at Istighfar, sending food to the respective houses, visit old folks homes and many more of it during the month of Ramadhan. I really do miss those moments. :( hopefully I can do those good deeds again not only in the month of Ramadhan but also in any others :))

Last thursday, celebrated the August babies birthday: Cik Man, Nana De& Adhar :) It was a night filled with laughters and sweetest memories. Lovin it'!

Recently I was updated with a very dissapointing news. I took a deep breath and try not too affect myself but I failed. La Tahzan Inallaha Ma'ana,those verse really helped me alot. I told myself to forgive and forget maybe it's just a test in our friendship but even if I have to sacrifice this friendship, Allah is great he replaced for me with a better one, Alhamdulillah so I shall be optimistic over all these issue :))

Main Examination is around the corner but I've yet to prepare anything, gosh. Good luck to all my friends and may we passed with flying colours okay? Till my next update, good-day&selamat berbuka :D

2011-04-22T18:31:00.005+08:00

Alhamdulillah my two months vacation will end in three days time and I didn't waste it by sleeping and slacking away just like how I used to in my previous holidays. I told myself to quit being lazy and make sure I'm awake for subuh prayers (always overshot one!) and did all the chores and lighten nenek's workload. I achieved my goals so far especially when I got to learn new recipes all along. Indeed it wasn't a good solid 2 months that I got two enjoy it due to supplementary papers that I've to sit for but it was an amazing journey and gave a wake up call of stop day dreamings in lecture and work smart in the next two years, InsyaAllah. Apart from that, I thank Allah swt too for the quality time I got to spend with my girls. Eventhough it may not be every single out of my 12 girls but still, I got to meet most of them! Thank you girls. On top of all above, the most impactful things I've done in these two months are I got to join jemaah for subuh payers for quite a number of times at ghufran. MasyaAllah, the feelings is so different than all other waktu's. The morning atmosphere, the selawat and zikir after our prayers seriously move me into tears. Syukran to Faiz for this golden opportunity! I do miss the days jemaah with my sayang gf's in Istighfar and spend time giggling on our tudungs,err...guys (lol) and what you call,gossip girls :D

Timetable has been released,not too bad. Off days on tuesday,why not monday then can have long weekends ;) Alright be thankful that u still have 4 days of school yati! Have a long weekends friends and May Allah swt blessed you guys always. Till my next update :)

2011-04-04T20:14:00.004+08:00

Eversince zyla brought us to bowling last week, it has been a favourite activity for us! There's always an unwanted scenes happening in the middle of the game. Some are too funny but at the end of the day it was a healthy competition and creates a stronger bond among us. yey :D

after much procastination,we finally had a small celebration for iqah's 2nd celebration and bought a proper gift for her 21st, that is a poloraid! some virgin shots were taken on her new toy which results in a beautiful pictures above :D. Have fun snapping, my girl!

I've finally found a CCA for myself,business interest group. Amazingly, I was selected for the interview and Alhamdulillah I'm in the comittee for now. Our first assignment is to plan for business day on 29th April so hopefully everything runs well,InsyaAllah. This CCA requires loads of planning and running of events. Something that I love to do so hopefully I will stay in this CCA and keep myself busy at the same time filter out the unecessary stuffs in my mind :D

2011-03-08T17:30:00.010+08:00

Alhamdulillah since holiday started I've been spending more quality time with family and relatives, calling up the maternal aunties&uncles asking on their updates,visit cik murni at her workplace and wait till she ends her breaks and not forgetting doing the never ending housework! Cleaning,scrubbing the toilets etc etc. True enough, when it comes to housework "memang tak habes". No matter how tiring it can get, at the end of the day I feel good and it makes my heart content. :D Apart from that, I told myself I need to catch up sometime with my girls too and first batch was girls day out with Iqah and Zyla, as always our trip will fill with jokes-laughters-candid shots and all those girly stuffs. tsk! Am looking forward in meeting my Amigas (hopefully our picnic plan works),my babengs and sayang gf's.

6 March- is the day Iqah turn 21 years old! Being a sweet boyfriend, Iss plan a special birthday bash for Iqah over at sedap corner and we were part of his plan together with all iqah and abang I close friends and not forgetting her beloved family. :) total force=25 ppl! Birthday girl got a shocked of her life man! *yeahhhhhhhh*!!! Few days before her birthday Faiz,Zyla and myself went all the way to JB to get a huge card as part of our gifts and apart from that, we went for food hunting. I got my pretzels from auntie anne's,burger ramly and we dine in secret recipe for lunch! And also finally got my shawl at pandan city for just RM10!!! Super cheaaaaap can?!! Accompanied faiz to top his minyak and wash his car before we bid gdbye to JB.

So to noor rasyiqah,Happy Birthday once again! Hope you love the huge card qah:) if we could give you the world, we would. But make do with this gift for now; everything else is on its way. sayang you truck loads! From-all of us not forgetting arischmari!

2011-03-05T16:33:00.003+08:00

I've been admiring you all along for a simple reason, the distinct difference in you from all those guys I have known but whatever I've seen lately may turn back on my face and I ponder last night if I should just be ignorant with whatever is happening but miza's word is like a repetition in my head and I conclude, I shall not carry on with the feelings InsyaAllah I can do this cause senai has always been the best place for de-stress!

2011-02-25T19:05:00.007+08:00

I have no idea why there's a sudden breakdown yesterday, I was so emotional to the extent that I almost give up studying :( Thank god for good friends around, they thought me to zikir and listen to some nasyed songs:) Thank you gf's! First paper today, I screw on my econs maybe that's the real reason to my emotional outburst yesterday as well as the bad feelings I had. :(( I shall be optimistic, stop crying over and over again instead have faith and focus on my other papers. ;(

2011-02-21T14:44:00.004+08:00

FIRST AND FOR MOST, CONGRATULATIONS TO MY BEST GIRL FOR PASSING HER TP!!! FIRST ATTEMPT JE DA PASS OKAAAAAAAYYYYY I BANYAK BANGGA SAMA YOU!

I'm going crazy with all the revisions and past year papers. This term is totally one sucky term, believe me. Sigh. I have put my heart and soul for every paper so now I just have to berserah with the end result. :) I don't mind taking supp papers but pls just don't repeat modules :( Thanks de for taking me out for a short break,sleepover at my place and accompany me mug with your songs&dance. and of course to my brother who never fail to knock on my door and assure I'm doing okay,our daily night conversations before we wish each other gdnight. Glad after so long, I finally spent quality time with the family. We watched Mr Bean Holiday together as a family yesterday, laughing and immitating each other. It's been a long time. :) & the whole happiness complete sangat2 when I managed to spent some time to visit mak last saturday. Syukur Alhamdulillah, my niat to visit her before my exam comes true. I miss salam-ed her,her kiss before I leave for exam. I must be strong! Anw Thank you Abang&Iqah. Good luck to all TP students for the final exams! Peace yo!!

2011-02-16T02:24:00.002+08:00

I envy those who has a high discipline of themselves. I can already stop myself from signing in to MSN messenger but not Facebook. OMG!!! why are you so addictive???? Fine, worst come to worst I just have to deactivate my acct till march.

Attended Maulid last sunday with the girls and fiqah's mom at Darul Aman. &shahrul gunawan sang his latest song,dhuha make all the makcik2 (including anak dara also) cair babe :) ganteng banget! And fiq, if you are reading this stop smiling okay, da sudah tu sudah fiq. lol..

I can't wait to get over&done with exams. I really2 hope nenek will understand and approve my sleepover trip to senai. :(

2011-02-12T14:07:00.007+08:00

Last two days An gave a suprise visit together with two boxes of pizzaaaaaa :D Funny as it seems but he always pops out whenever I feel down. Despite disagree on my decision regarding the current situation glad I could still have his support. Thanks AN! .

saw this on FB (photo credit: Hidayah Sapian) The only four girls surrounded by playful guys but protective and time flies very fast that all of us has grown up into an young adult. I MISS THEM TOOOO :(

And Alhamdulillah, hard work paid off I passed my accounting overall! God knows how afraid I was with Accounts :( Text to all the beloved people for the doa's and motivation. So mass msg to them&tira's reply motivates me to a greater extent "

Hi dear :) Syukur Alhamdulillah that's really
good to hear :D I'm so proud of you. Keep the spirits
alive& don't let anyone bring you down. I'm sure you will thru for ur
exams, will doa for you my friend :) You deserve it cause you put a lot of
effort in it:) Keep it up. Take care, if you need anything don't hesitate to
call or text me :). Mucho loves. "

Things aren't easy for me if not on family it will be a about love life. But I am thankful for the never ending support given by people around me. Thank you guys, you know who you are!

I remembered I was so cruel back then. When I was caught in a situation between someone who waits for me and my own bestfriend, I chose love over friendship and little did I realized I've chosen the wrong action. The story between me, Aishah and wan is still fresh on my mind. But there's a lot of lessons to be learnt behind the painful story and from the day itself I told and promise myself that I will never repeat the mistake ever again and that's why with age catching up, I am more mature to handle things on a right mind and that I will sacrifice and do whatever it takes(even if I've to tipu sunnat) for the guy to avoid a distance with me where god knows how much I love you, missing you every night and wish that I could confess to you but everything is hold back behind those actions. Discuss with family&AN. An strongly advise me to think twice on my actions and I'm very firm with my final decision cause you see friendship stays forever,love? I could never tell the possibilities. Well at the end of the day every one has it's own perception, I am stick to mine cause I know she worth the sacrifices and he will always stays in my heart :)

2011-02-08T11:31:00.004+08:00

Photo credits: Abang Man's D3000.

When Abang Man tagged me this pic, I burst out laughing! Expression satu2 mengalahkan Miss Universe&wak is so cute can? Whatever it is I love them loads, thank you wak&cik milah for feeding me with food and your TLC for every time we meet *big hug*.

And also, best of luck to Arif for his National Service. Two weeks gonna be fast bro and you will go through it just fine okay? Meet up when you BOOK OUT. lol. :D

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am trying to refrain myself from touching the laptop each time I take study break cause I end up surfing the net. & oh! thanks to my cousin who will always shout "Ayub, Ayub" each time I'm on the phone with cik murni that now cik murni stuck with the name. -__-. The other day went I send some lauk from nenek the moment I give salam, the whole family went high and hail "AYUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB!" Thanks eh, cite 80'an takmo di bukak2 pls. :/

CNY!

2011-02-04T13:11:00.005+08:00

Went to sentosa with kakak&her family together with kakak maternal aunts- wak mamah, cik milah&family. Thankfully my two nephews woke up a little late if not we have to be at harbourfront at about umm,8? HAHA.

Settled at Palawan Beach and the guys went for a swim right after our breakfast while the rest of us enjoying ourselves under the sun,munching on food and gossiping away. lol. Had ball of time at Sentosa and we left at about 4 where next, abang man brought us all around town- syiok! At Marina Bay Sands, apelah naseb there's a heavy rain the moment we walked out from the carpark and since kakak is pregnant, being the jiwa gitu loh we joined her walked slowly to the nearest shelter. Even though we got all ourselves wet but it was seriously an enjoyable moments. Laughing and disturbing your loved ones under the rain! Apart from that after had a torturous week in school, finally I had a good quality time with the brother :) & abang did enjoyed himself esp in Sentosa and camwhoring at MBS, that is so unsual about my brother okay? I love my family, very2 much and with them, everything that is on my mind fly off far far away!

Spider - Kita Satu (Lirik)

2011-02-02T18:21:00.001+08:00

Aunt insists me telling him my true feelings or stop hurting myself and let the feelings go, I choose the later :]

2011-01-31T01:12:00.005+08:00

Last friday I saw radiah at our school bus stop and couldn't help to ask about Emran. It's such a small world thou' that radiah who is my secondary sch friend end up with my pri sch bestie :D Recent update was Emran finally surrender himself after running from his National Service, I didn't go further about this issue as Radiah were already all teared up.

Deep inside it hurts me seeing a good friend in that kinda of state & to hear that he cried upon seeing her and also his mom makes me assume that life must be miserable for him ;( Em is a good guy I must say despite his background, he respect his circle of friends and protect his girl friends well too. He's always there when I had arguments or problems with Ayub, he will lend his shoulder for me to cry on and ears to whine. Being a badot around us brighten up our daily life esp in our childhood days. I really hope being all alone in there makes Em reflect his life and turn over a new leaf, InsyaAllah. I don't blame you for being in this condition cause I know surroundings makes you do those stupid stuffs. Maybe I should write to you one day, Em and I want you to know that I miss talking to you, the way you tease me till aku merajok and you will come up with stupid things that end up with my what you call "ketawa pontianak". You know me well em, you read me well. Be a change man, cause you're lucky now that you've met a girl who love you with all her heart&soul,a loving mother who never gives up on you. & friends who will always support you. :)

2011-01-30T01:12:00.008+08:00

Allah yubarik fik, sayang!

OOOOPS it's been a long time eversince my last entry :D

Yeah, I decided not to privatized my blog anymore so now people like my cousins can easily access without going thru' so much hassle *somersault* now thank me for making you people life easier ;) Well, I MIGHT not be updating that regularly thou hee.

Huda finally leave us for Algeria as much as we missed her and wish for her stay,we clearly aware that all of us will have to leave each other one day. Moussa is a lucky man& I hope you will taken good care of. I could not thank huda for the guidance she has given me since our childhood days and make us a better muslimah. I would not knw what will happen to me babe if you didn't pull me out from the bad company. I remembered asking you the feelings having a far distance relationship to as much couple nowadays wants to meet (you know like typical couples 1 bulan tak jupe mcm 10 tahun rasenye?HAHA) and your reply add on my respect for you. Well, it's true our jodoh is from Allah swt and by meeting the other half thru' his way -eg: doa actually are much more meaningful&closer. Same goes to what we are facing now babe we are so far apart and busy with life but you will always be in my daily doa's and also, my heart :] I hope we will meet again (hopefully in june) and I can't wait to plant my kisses on your cheeks babe! lol.

2010-11-14T22:54:00.005+08:00

I ate a lot lately to add on, it has been good food all along. Alhamdulillah :) So look out for my chubby cheeks yaw' hahah I'm fine with it as long my heart is content esp with whatever I have right now. It may not be perfect like I used to have when late mak is around but still, I am thankful for people around me who cares so much. Thou' I am just pretending and put on smiles when my heart actually ache of missing her too much, I need to be on my feet face up the reality slowly, where mak will always live in my heart as long as I'm breathing.AL-FATEHA.

2010-11-08T01:11:00.002+08:00

I lost track on media related eversince school starts but by chance, while doing my school work I happened to catch part of the news feed regarding a recent debate seminar going on last week and the topic was- "Personality or Importance in school education". Sadly, most respondents choose the latter. So, I don't have much to say on the attitude we will see in the near future generation. reality is harsh huh?

2010-11-04T00:37:00.002+08:00

I admire those courageous people who got up in a failure. I dream to be one. :)

2010-10-28T22:31:00.004+08:00

new term has just began and tmr, it will be the end of first week. School books are burning a whole in my pocket, sigh. Modules are relatively harder than last term giving me a crack on my head. weekends are all I'm looking into for every week as much as it pull me to a low esteem I try so hard to think that this is life and achieving something we want so much doesn't come with easy hands-deal with it.

I miss my 3 months of holiday thou' I thanked that long breaks simply because many things cropped up within that time period for example another death in the family, I was sick and being treated, Hari Raya, fasting month at home and many more. So life in TP is balance "somehow" and looking at how killer all modules is just making me one wish and that is to pass with all the requirements and graduate from TP. That's it! And I don't want to be undergraduate okay and stop giving me one whole bad experience with you. 16 weeks will be fast, ;)

Since my timetable sucks big time, I will seldom update this space of mine. bonjour!

2010-10-18T23:25:00.004+08:00

On 1st of september 2010, I turned 21 years old and that is where my life change into a better one. I celebrated with the bestfriends whom I regard as part of my family members. I thank them for every effort they have put in to make this celebration a success for me and Ariff. They are just there, anytime and went thru' every thick and thin together. They made my 21st too memorable and it never crossed my mind they invited our family along. I was dissapointed when abang have to work and honestly speaking, I miss mom a lot. Anyone in my shoes will fill the emptyness celebrating 21st w/out someone whom you dearly love. Thanks d'geng for cheering me up, and faiz who fetched abang that he could attend the celebration on time The best mastermind I have met so far, I love you guys!

Apart from that, all the besties showered me with too sweet tahap maximum with their wishes and presents. From my Amigas,Sayang Gf's, Babengs not forgetting Muhammad Farhan kader, talking abt him. We were lil sad thou' that we cldnt celebrate together since my exams were just around the corner and that I have yet to prepare anything. I feel so bad that he had already planned bt still, An is An he gave a beautiful surprise gift and put in on my shoe rack late at night. Thank you An.

And yesterday, I received another gift from Miza. Upon reading her words on the card, my tears ran heavily. I thank Allah swt for them, for giving me such a beautiful people in my life. Syukran Ya Allah.

2010-10-18T00:26:00.007+08:00

Happy Advance Birthday to Zaii's BF-Faris. Hope you have a great celebration with the loved ones :)

Not forgetting to Mr Faizal, happy 22th. This is the best picture I can find so far. :D May all your dreams comes true, dimurahkan rezeki and sentiasa happy2 selalu. And not forgetting less accidents pls lol. Have a safe ride,ingat pesan your nenek! hahah.

Lynn organized a BBQ to celebate Faizal&Faris 22nd bdae. Seriously it was a great feeling to meet and catch up over ups and downs in our life especially with dearest Miza. We hardly see each other and I really do miss the quality times we used to have together back in Nitec days. I keep praying our friendship will always remain strong and everlast and that applies to my other gf's too. AMIN. I am just blessed to have a circle of great gf's,seriously :)

To add on to my wonderful night, my partner in crime yet again give me a surprised by coming down together with Faiz, thank you for always be there la you. heheh. It was such a missed that Iqah cldn't join or else it will be a whole load of fun. It's okay, we gonna meet up pretty soon okay love?

To wrap up the night we had a ball of time lepak-ing at Bedok Reservouir talking and looking at surrounding, breath taking! good night everyone, I only have a week to rot at home!

2010-10-15T00:56:00.003+08:00

Adat istiadat adalah turun kemurun dari zaman nenek moyang kita lagi. Hingga kini, majority adat yang dititikberatkan tetap dikekalkan namun, apabila saya meningkat dewasa melalui era yang berbeza fikiran minda saya mula tertanya hingga ke manakah adat ini boleh dibawa yang teorinya dari orang arif lagi budiman "tidak lapuk dek zaman".

Orang dahulu memang terkenal dengan anak yang begitu ramai, berderet-deret seperti sahabat saya yang suka berjenaka "boleh buat pasukan bola" namun pada zaman millinimium ini, mampukah generetion X kekalkan nya? Kami amat dilemma, jika sikit anak diperisukan jikalau ramai pula senario seperti berikut akan berlaku.

Cik A: "eh B, dari mane ne? beli susu ke?"

Cik B: "Aah la apelagi A, anak2 aku tu BUAT ANAK PANDAI, DA ANAK CAMPAKNYA KAT KITA bulat2 da la kasi duit sikit tiap2 bulan."

Tidak sama mengasuh anak sendiri dengan tangan sendiri,dahulu ibu kita akan mengasuh didik kita hinggalah peringkat dewasa namun, kehidupan sekarang yang serba mewah yang semuanya perlukan wang membuat si ibu perlu keluar bekerja but menolong suami mencari nafkah dari itu mereka terpaksa menukar tanggungjawab itu kepada ibu bapa mereka ataupun tadika. Ada pula yang bersikap serong jika si suami memikul tanggangjawab si isteri di rumah sementara si isteri keluar bekerja. Mengapa ini tidak boleh berlaku? Adat. dan mungkin sebahagianya ego seorang lelaki. Kenapa isu ini harus dipertaikan sedangkan lihatla, siapa yang menduduk chef di restaurant2 mewah, terus terang saya katakan lelaki mempunyai "OM" jika masak dari wanita.

Satu lagi isu yang saya cuba bentangkan di sini ialah perspektif orang tua "anak dara tidak perlu belajar tinggi". Saya sendiri melalui sebaris ayat berikut. Saya bersyukur, arwah ibu tidak pernah besikap negatif malahan dia ingin sekali melihat tangga kejayaan saya namun, nenek sentiasa membawa hal ini ke telinga saya. Yang saya mampu ialah berdiam diri dan tabahkan hati. Pada saya, tidak salah jika saya seseorang wanita itu ingin mempunyai keinginan menuntut ilmu hingga ke tangga teratas walaupon realiti itu benar, si isteri akan meninggalkan kejayaan itu dan digantikan dengan tugasan seorang ibu dan Isteri bukankah segulung ijazah itu boleh juga membawa beliau ke arah lain? Seperti si ibu boleh membimbing si anak dari segi pelajaran maka jimat dari segi kos tuisyen, ia juga boleh membuat business secara online ataupon dalam daya kreativiti sendiri dll. Saya teringat waktu kecil, arwah ibu akan sentiasa berada sisi kami walaupon dia tidak dapat membantu dalam pelajaran kami. Arwah ibu mencari tempat tuisyen untuk kami, meminta tolong sedara demi kepandaian anak walaupon hidup kami spt "kais pagi makan pagi". Dan disebab itula arwah ibu tidak mahu kami menjadi spertinya.

Hantaran-saya memang tidak gemar mendengar topik ini. Kasihan melempah ruah kepada si lelaki yang bertahun-tahun menyimpan wang kerana ingin menyunting si dara dengan "market price" yang diminta pihak mentua. Mengucap yang mampu aku buat mendengar mereka meminta diluar kemampuan si lelaki. Tidak salah mengikut adat datuk nenek kita namun, janganla seksakan diri sendiri cuma kerana ingin menutup malu fikirlah diri sendiri sebelom anda memikirkan orang lain.

Sebelum saya akhiri entry ini, saya memohon ampun dan maaf jika ada menyinggung mana2 pihak. Ini hanya pandangan saya yang saya ingin kongsi, tiada niat mengenakan sesiapa.

Sekian,
Assalamualaikum :)

2010-09-25T00:38:00.005+08:00

Alhamdulillah! First results out and I passed with flying colours-not :) Yeah screwed on my GPA but I am still grateful Allah swt has answered my prayers of not taking any supplementary papers (something like repeat paper). so, I have a month to enjoy with peace and live life to the fullest before 6 months of hell occur me again. Ironically, I can't wait for next sem. A brand new semester with new modules to look for but I really hope my timetable will be good to us again. Not looking forward to ending class late or 3/4 hours of breaks.

***

I didn't set my goals high. As long as I pass and proceed to the next sem is more than enough for me. But a question disturbed me lately, thou' I didnt have any plans to go U I still have to maintain my GPA for the workforce , my streaming and Cross-Disp subjects for next year. So that's it, I've set my goals for semester 1.2 and will work hard (please do your tutorials yati, and never skip it especially BA) Insya-Allah.

Talking about streaming, I have to choose one out of the three diplomas TP offer:
1. Business

2. Logistics

3. Marketing

1/2 of the BSG students out of 13 classes (which also the smarts ones) will be qualified for Diploma in Business,the most popular and professional diploma while others will have to be in the other two options. Oh my, I don't wish to pick up the wrong choice and screw my GPA and lost the interest to study. God, please help me in this. Mcm nak carik jodoh pulak hor ;)

2010-09-22T20:03:00.000+08:00

2010-09-22T00:02:00.003+08:00

For now, all I wish is to get well soon and stay in pink health reason being, I want to cont' jalan raya. I have yet to visit my late mom's side except for nenek and pak long. :( what's more parents friends and so on. I just realized I only have this week to cover as next week my cousin will get married! oh no :/! By hook or by crook, I need to go uncle place at Senai this Sunday. really can't wait for that, the only place that I can run away from my woes.

***

Grandma slap me hard with her words about something that really affect me this few days. Honestly, I was left speechless when he said that. I shouldn't hurt him till that extend, when he actually care so much on my health. Zyla is right, he said that out of anger and I'm lucky enough that he is that patience with me. I took few days to reflect for whatever things I've hurt him, it will come to no end if I stay the way I am. I'm sorry,An.

***

I can't wait to update on my very first time admitted in A&E. I've seen momma,abah and my loved ones in there but I have never imagine myself in there. The experience is too painful to see what'smore to be in their shoes. But last saturday, wa san exception I've to made my way to Alexandra as my spine problem was utterly unbearable that I scream, kick, and shouted like nobody business. Through out the years suffering from this sickness this is the very first time I got admitted in A&E and to know it was w/out late mom by my side-double painful for me. I remembered I cried so hard and calling for her name when I got a jab, and even after the strongest medicine they gave me, I am still in the current state thankfully with another jab and doa's from friends and relatives, when I woke up condition got better and that I could get up by myself followed by a good news,I could be discharged!!!!! Alhamdulillah. I keep praying not to be warded. I'm so afraid of operations and what not.

Back home, grandma was so emotional and her actions really touches my heart. On top of that, the concern given by both side of my aunties&uncles really made me feel so appreciated. Thank you so much esp to my girls :)

2010-09-20T03:28:00.004+08:00

Dear you,

I know that we have been far apart from each other. I am sorry for my fickle-minded and egoistic which adds on to our current horrible state. I want you to know, I miss you but this inner voice cldn't project and string it into words. I am deeply hurt too for everything that happen to us now, you and me can never know what is playing in our hearts and mind. Tell me, where did we go wrong. Is it me or you? Why can't we work things out just like me and my other guy friends? each time I wanted to make things clear something seems to be stopping me. we have been hiding for too long. What is actually that we have been hiding with each other? How long should we stay in this game,till we are old enough? Bestie, is it going to be too late when we decided to pour everything out will there be a day for us? No doubt partially it's my fault but they are right, I should save this friendship and treasure you as much as you have been treasuring ours. I know I can never have the courage to tell you this let it be here and just here, cause I know you won't visit me here.

I want you to know..

***

1-I miss you so much.. flash back to where we used to be..remember we are so close back then. when something crop up, immediately we will call for an update but now?look what happen to us.

2-thou you are not like my other guy friends, you are very unique in your own way. I like how you indirectly show your concern without me knowing, leaving any clues for me to track. and your surprises has always been the sweetest!

thou we are far apart, and we may not be like how we used to you will always be remember close to my heart. just like how u once telling me, " pelik tau.. busy mcm mane pon in a day, mesti at least 1 min I remember you". :)

3-One day, if we decided to change and open up with each other... I want to walk with you embrace our memories and make it a walk that we will always remember,lifetime.

Yours Truly,

your bestie tot.

2010-09-16T17:12:00.002+08:00

Hello readers,

I've been on hiatus for quite a few weeks as things are getting out of hand lately. Umm, exams over (oh that was hell), ramadhan's left us for syawal on top of that my 21st bdae was awesome tahap kebom! thank yoooou d'geng and not forgetting zuzu&abang I.

For now, I really hope my first examination in poly doesn't have any supp papers if so, it will be another round of hell. I seriously have ZERO idea how the systems work thankfully seniors make a great help.

I gtg for now, early dinner with my girls hooraah!

2010-08-30T03:21:00.002+08:00

kak nita, my cousin who suffered from brain tumour let go her last breath on 26 August 2010. We lost another beautiful soul in the family, one who always enlighten the family events we usually had. Al-fateha to Allahyarhamha Azizah Bte Abas :(

2010-08-25T18:14:00.002+08:00

Apart from cooking asam pedas ikan duri, I finally know how to cook lonteng goreng :) Thanks nenek! There's a sudden urge to do so lately and first attempt looks okay, just that we have to taste it later once azan berkumandang. ;)

2010-08-23T22:29:00.001+08:00

I no longer feel the excitement each time you ring me up, everything feels so numb.

BREAK DAWN.

2010-08-20T02:27:00.003+08:00

Been preparing meals for sahur for me and abang. waking him up is such a pain, well I've been a pain too when mom is around ;) waking us up for sahur is just giving her a huge headache but I love it cause I miss the creative ways she woke us up especially in a motherly manner. I am too pampered that at times, when my eyes are barely open, she will fed me with love. I've never imagine putting myself into this responsibility but for sure one day,I will be a mother to my own kids, and I hope I could be just like you mak :)

tentangnya kita, Islam

2010-08-16T16:01:00.004+08:00

Salam Ramadhan, sahabat sumua. (:

Pilu rasa hati saya masih belom lagi boleh menunaikan Puasa. Tidak sabar rasa hati ini ingin menunaikan puasa dan tarawih yang memberikan kita satu pengalaman unik,merasai kehidupan yang susah dan tidak lupa juga memberi pelbagai ganjaran yang baik dari segi physical dan mental dll.

Dalam bulan Ramadhan yang penuh barakah ini, umat Islam tentunya mengejar pahala yang sedia ada seperti malam lailatuqadar, solat sunnat dan sebagainya. Saya amat berbangga menjadi umat Islam pun begitu, tidak kurangnya kaum minoriti yang memberi refleksi kurang elok kepada kaum kita. Salah satu pengalaman yang tidak dapat saya lupakan ialah berjalan di Afghanistan, Tampines bersama Abang saya dengan tunjuan membeli juadah puasa dan keperluan dapur. Teringin pula nafsu ingin membeli Teh-O ice di kedai kopi teh tarik berdekatan, sesampainya kami di sana tiba-tiba langkah kaki kami mengatur dengan perlahan dan mata saya merenung sebuah meja yang merangkumi empat kaum emas sedang enak menjamu selera dan pena'an kopi. Beristighfar kami di dalam hati.

Minda saya bergerak seperti awan di langit, perlahan-lahan mengimbas kembali waktu zaman kecil saya. Arwah ibu saya telah mendidik kami berpuasa sejak kecil lagi apabila saya sudah cukup umur, dan menjadi dara maka itulah saya perlu mengharungi uzur setiap bulan. Di bulan Ramadhan, ibu hanya mengizin saya menjamu selera selepas waktu azan magrib dan setelah sumua sudah berbuka. Pernah saya cuba untuk duduk bersama setelah Abah bangun untuk menunaikan fardhu magrib, ibu mencubit peha saya dan berkata "adek tak boleh makan, siapa yang tak puasa abe makan bersama nanti ade tanduk kat kepala" Takut nya bukan kepalang lagi, saya mempercayai kata2 ibu sehinggalah dewasa baru saya sedari bahawa ibu hanya menakutkan saya kerana yang cuba disampaikan ialah, saya harus menghormati orang yang berpuasa. Yang telah pon berjaya menahan nafsu makan&dahaga sepanjang hari.

Memang saya sedari semakin ramai melupai tanggungjawab sebagai seorang Islam, pernah salah seorang rakan saya berjenaka " ala, orang skrg ne hanya berdasar kan nama Islam tapi pernagai tak serupa". Apakah yang akan terjadi pada kaum kita jika kita lalai dari semua aspek Islam mengajari kita? Apakah satu hari nanti kita akan melihat semakin ramai yang akan menjamu selera di bulan Ramadhan. Saya faham, remaja zaman ini terlalu moden dan berfikiran barat. Apa yang saya cuba tekan kan di sini, di mana pun kita berada dan cuba menjadi yang lain kita tetap kaum Melayu dan Islam sentiasa menjadi benteng agama kita. Seperti sebuah pujangga pernah berkata "darah yang mengalir tetap sama seperti darah yang dilahir".

Dari itu saya tamatkan post saya sehingga di sini, maaf jika ada yang terasa hati dan sebagainya. Ia hanya berkongsi cerita tiada niat pun mengacukan kepada sesiapa.

Salam Sayang,
Haryati Bte Hoderi

TEAM MATES

2010-08-11T22:46:00.008+08:00

There is always procastination to study when at home. I think the idea of study week is bad enough for people like me but this is Poly yati, change urself. I can't afford to do it last minute as there is a whole chunk of chapters that could make me crazy and have a hard time to understand.

Talking about school, as far as I could remember I have yet to introduce you people to my team mates that I've been working together with for the first semester so since I've some free time to spare let me bring you to the last day of embarking the first semester journey! AHA.

From the left; that's Jacob oh. Well he's a joker in our group and he can't live w/out the four letter words, vulgarities is his second bestfriend but he still have the respect for us Muslims, limited use of vulgar use infront of me and syirene. If he does by accident, he will apologized to us. (: & Jacob is a guy with full of brilliant ideas. So pls do not judge him by his Ah-Beng look okay? HA HA. Then come syirene, my partner in school! Syirene is very talented in Art&Design and that she took the wrong course of which it's her parents choice that she need to fullfill. Yet Syirene is a great friend to have around seriously despite our age gap she has always been the reason to my smiles each day in school. Well the girl in tudung, there isn't any need to describe tsk! Next the girl beside me is,Constance Wang Zhe, she came from China. The top student in our class and very outgoing in school activities. One word- smart. Then come Hadi Al-Hazim, don't ask me why his eyes turn out to be that scary like merlissa (the owner of the Hp) said my "hp hates you" (: We admire Hadi's English, I tell you it was super damn good! We were amazed each time he send or edited our report. A2 for English leh, no wonder! And last but not least is Merlissa, our petite yet strict group leader. Thanks to her plans and her firm personality that make us move in our work. She may be petite but very discipline when it comes to work that is why she is called "chili padi". HA HA HA. Oh and she's one of the top student in our class too! Never in my life that I stayed back in school to complete our project esp when we are talking abt weekends but at the end of the day, with our own forte,discipline and equal fairness in the task allocated we managed to get straight A's in our project work and among the highest in most projects we did as a team. Alhamdulillah. I am very proud of my team mates thou' we didn't make a good start but we end it with a bang!

Looking fwd to Sem 2 (:! & girls. meet up for study session soon!

RAINBOW

2010-08-10T13:17:00.005+08:00

I am lil dissapointed that my menses came a day before 1st of Ramadhan :(

Many major things that made me under a lot of stress finally came to end (insya allah) and I thank Allah for answering my prayers. I was relieved that mom's tahlil on her 1st year went very smoothly despite the major setbacks that I've to face. Endless appreciation who came down and for all the doa's. Sorry zuzu for giving the wrong info yet you still attend it and of course to zyla for the wonderful surprise that you gave. I seriously thought you are going Malaysia, good job in playing the role of Abang I you two! ahaha.

Managed to send an for his enlistment together with his parents and not forgetting zyla&Faiz. After few days in camp the boy finally book out for NDP and was surprised he came to meet me yest. Can't stop laughing to his new look but honestly, he look good with bald hairstyle.

[photos credit:ila]

I finally quit my job and gonna take care of the family during the month of Ramadhan nt forgetting preparing for my major exams. Insya Allah, everything will be back as per normal (:

2010-07-30T23:41:00.003+08:00

My summative comm skills test is few hours away and I have less than 50% of confidence. I better take a wudhu' to ease myself. I have no idea what is the "thing" that is bothering me right now :(

2010-07-29T13:43:00.005+08:00

"Kite betul tetap jadi salah,lebih baik kite buat salah".-brother.

I seriously agree with Abang's believe. The commotion between them and us will never end and I shall let the matter rest. I am dissapointed in many ways and wish I could let it all out but for the name of respect, I shall shut my mouth. Mom's 1 year is getting nearer and the unwanted comments arises just like how it used to be. :( I am not being one sided, believe me but they are just one bloody hypocrite moron that don't deserve any respect from me. If killing is legal, I would kill that someone who said " yati mungkin rapat dgn mak but you don't know who the real her" FUCK. Even if late mom is the worst women ever lived in this world, I respect her for who she is and still love her endlessly cause I am proud the way she brought us up and etc. Maybe the view is turning back to your damn face! Then second group of people probably who will be my victim is to those who insists dad to re-marry again. They need to be awake by my words but Abang has always been the barrier to my actions you know? I believe we should have the same respect in return, urgh! Oh but whatever it is, all this shits that happened make me more determine to work on mom's 1 year by myself, they can be my gossip visitors by all means but just don't let me hear it or I will give you a piece of shit, mark my words you old-hens!

speaking of the bff

2010-07-28T19:02:00.004+08:00

I was dicussing with Faiz if I should celebrate with An before he got enlist. Thou' he maybe a pain at times but nevertheless I know he cares for everyone of us just that An is An he will express deliberately. Something that us have to adapt, I learnt. Farewell An, eventhough I didn't give you my permission to read my blog one day I will. In 2 years time perhaps? (;

HELLO!

2010-07-27T00:19:00.006+08:00

Honestly it slip off my mind that I have a page to blog and whine on.

Things are getting out of place lately and that I tried my best to re-concile it all back. As a start, I quit my job which means no more monthly income in my bank however I appreciate the fact that I'm no longer under a lot of stress (hope my period will back as per normal) and that I can have my leisure time again. It was a tough decision to be made but I believe it's the best especially to think, it's Ramadhan soon and Syawal after next, I have a bigger responsibilities which means I've to cook for the family, find food for buka prepare for buka and cook sahur for me and abang. I hope abang will stay on his current job and put my mind at ease.

I couldn't explain how relieved I was when I submit my resignation thou' I still have 3 days to serve. -_- but on a positive note I will get some $$ come August. Lately more and more things has occured my mind (results of stress perhaps?) like what I really want to do in my life, am I in the right line, at what age should I settle down and stuffs? Last sunday, on a long bus ride from Boon Lay back to hometown I told abang my interest is actually to pick up some courses in Islamic Studies(don't laugh pls!). I once ponder regarding it, I remembered when I was a young kid, I'm always alive (oh there's a kids ALIVE now,cool huh?) when it was time for madrasah. I told abang probably I chose the wrong step in life but my brother, the optimistic man have always decide the best and gave a very great advise which I will take into consideration.

Am getting sick when a certain group raise the issue of me cont' studying at the age of urm 21. Goodness I am too young for something that is so big in life. I shall remain in my comfort zone (: Zyla is right, financial plays one of the significant factors in marriage. Of course, I do want to meet my dream-man and go through all the momento' times, being the king and queen of the day & be a mother of my own kids but the time is just not right.

It's been a month plus since I last talk to Abah, I just hate the fact that when mom is around everything is so uproot and solid then suddenly, everything toppled and became so messy. Am grateful abang is still around, I don't hate Abah I am just.... dissapointed.

oh congrats to ZyLa's brother for his engagement with his friendly and sweet fiance. Thank you for inviting us over and be part of the great event geng! oh before that meet doa' the bright and gorgeous little kid that made my day and wants me to have my own kids. super damn adorable!

And since today is Nisfu Syaaban, I wish all my muslim friends a good time and semoga di buku baru penuh dgn amalan yang baik. AMIN (:

JUMBO

2010-07-15T22:53:00.002+08:00

I finished my school work earlier as planned and since I'm waiting for Aan to arrive for free pizza (enjoy while it last=NS for him) I shall spare some time to update.

well since the day I choose to live independently I realized real world are harsh and coping with hectic school environment and working part time are never easy for me. This is what I want, I have enough living pampering under my family and that I don't wish to burden them any more with my own expenses however, my immune system are not that strong to fight against all the possibilities sickness one could have if he/she tend to overwork. I thought of giving a quit to my part-tme job and concentrate on my studies but there are factors that stop me for now see how it goes come August. I need to mug like one hell and hopefully no failure for any papers. Insya Allah.

Apart from that I just came from visiting my cousin who diagnosed with tumor cancer. It was heart wrenching to see her condition, at times she suffered memory loss and I could no longer hold my tears thou it has been upteenth times I've been warned by my family but seriously, it was an exception. I really hope she will pull through in this hard times and get well soon.

To be continue okay, the mat rempit finally arrived. goodnite everyone!

COMBO 1.

2010-07-08T19:15:00.004+08:00

projects datelines are next to each other and the whole process is just unexplainable! But because we are good students we just have to bare with all this -______-. I declare it has been a long time since I last had 8 hours of full sleep. pathetic, I know.

No matter how tired life cld be, a simple dinner with the loved ones made my heart content and lessen my level of stress.

one of the weekdays I managed to slot in some time after class to meet my Amigas. It was a combo of re-union and also belated bdae celebration for our dearest tira. It takes place at Amirah's grill, my first time dining at such places. Overall rating: 9/10. Maybe the 1% goes to the inconsiderate customers they have. tsk.

last but not least, hope you've 21st gorgeous.

A TRUE STORY.

2010-06-28T22:14:00.010+08:00

This is base on a true story.

A women whom is seen an intelligent, a devoting wife and a very loving mother to people her around has always lend others a helping despite how one character cld be but most times she is seen in a different ways to her pure intention.

Her kids has always look upon her smart ways in handling her role as her mother and a wife. She isn't one who is stingy but economical. Life has always been so hard on her and she tried to save every cents she has for the future. She don't spend money to doll herself up, a big no. She has always seen as a person who set ger family and household first yet again she was seen differently by others.

***

One beautiful morning, she was invited to a relative's function. Pity the women, she has no money to buy the materialistic family an expensive gift. She was in a great dilemma if she and her family should proceed to the event. Thinking not to dissapoint anyone & it's the thought that counts, her husband and herself decided to go along with the event with their lil small boy whom old enough to see things. Since she heard about the hardship the family silently going through, she decided to wrapped a packed of maggie mee sardines and few more of an household items. Like again, her intention was to help the family replenish the wardrobe and of course she has no money to get an expensive gifts for the family who just act super rich.

And,When it was time for the presents opening, the women who is feeding her small boy got stopped by a comment which stabbed her heart pulling her into a pool of tears;

"eh! siape kasi ne? maggie, sardine je?ape ne?!!"

Her husband and herself turned and confessed it was them. She got criticized over her purest will. The small boy who seen the whole picture hugged his mother and told her one valuable thing in life, "mak, nari hari de. Niat mak bayek kan so nanti one day mesti de dapat balasan".

***

3 years has passed...

True enough, the family faced a huge family problem, the couple end up divorce and in huge debt. As amazing as the poor women she is, she put the past behind, even told the husband to give some money, food and whatever she could to help her ****-ing sister-in-law. With god willing, the poor women life got financially better and a family whom has always standby her.

***

The women has gone but she left her good values behind, and that women is none than other,
my momma (:

JUGGLING.

2010-06-24T19:54:00.004+08:00

Life has been so blessed. missing late mom and wanting her badly by our side is not something new thou. oh here's some pictures that I cld retrieved in some events that I successfully managed to joined in (: &bloggers, sorry for the lack of update time has been constraint since I started to choose a hectic life but Alhamdulillah, I could still hang on till this very day. AMIN.

2010-06-14T00:00:00.005+08:00

since most of us has started our part time work, D'geng are getting more difficult to meet up esp when important events like weddings,but am proud we could spare some time to meet and help out for Ari's brother wedding on both days.

Congrats to Abang Arshad and Kak N.Azreen (:-

Alert

2010-06-11T13:36:00.002+08:00

omg, 1 more week to rush for the individual project!

BESTIE AN.

2010-06-09T19:25:00.004+08:00

Bestfriend, I've known you for so many years but I will never understand you,seriously

I tried not to worry you with my problems as I am clearly aware with your hectic work schedule and that I hate to trouble you so I really hope, you will not think negative again.

Today, when we meet for a short while you keep emphasizing that you feel bad for idk what bt I could feel the reason to your feelings. Suddenly it strucks whether I've hurt you with my words intentionally. An, you'r different from all my guyfriends thou' we are not like any other bestfriends. I know you've always care for me and get update legally. Like I've said earlier on, no one could replace you, An.

Seriously Im not sure if I said the right thing earlier on,but whether you are always there for me or not, I will always regard you as a bestfriend so please be optimistic bestie and no more doubts on either of us. Just hope everything went well for our friendship. Insya Allah (:

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

2010-06-08T23:48:00.005+08:00

This was on last saturday, the 5th. Iqah zyla&Myself had a week planning for this special outing as it is specially planned for Faiz's advance bdae celebration and also our mission to cheer up our dearest Ari so a meticulous plan is needed and as usual, with a great team to go along everything went as planned (OH! MINUS OUR LATENESS, AS USUAL -_____-) From visiting to Ari's place/sentosa (Fort siloso cum Imbiah) and last but not least our rqst for sunset at henderson waves (this was impromptu btw) was granted! After had the max level of stress for the past few weeks, this is all I need=Laughter and I thank you guys for every laughter and also the tears we shared. I wish I cld meet up the other girls too, oh I will try my best to squeeze the time as I've started on my part-time job *gulp*

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Happy 21st Belo!!!!!! Keep that humour side of urs alive but umm, pls be MORE serious and less LIES to me other than that, stay the way you are alright? Hope you have a great celebration with your loved ones and always make them proud, Insya Allah!

2010-06-01T19:51:00.001+08:00

just one more paper, and I can have my short hol (:

BLAH -____-

2010-05-28T22:02:00.004+08:00

knowing him for less than six months and head over heals in two meet ups, slap me please! and Vesak day doesnt make any better either, it's not a holiday for me instead a mugging day. still Im more than happy to complete the killer units for POM. just two more units.woohoo!

perseverance that is.

2010-05-27T00:19:00.003+08:00

why do time has to past that fast? -______- i am too comfortable with the 2-3 modules in ITE and when Ive to endure with more than 3 modules in a term, I freak out of coz'.-___- And I just can't seem to find the right perspective of life that I shld head to. Masya Allah, I just have loads of things in mind now but I am clearly aware Allah swt will keep me strong and always be with me, so do my loved ones (: You can do it, haryati!

mr eans

2010-05-24T01:22:00.002+08:00

It takes me days to make a decision erasing you in my life and my closed ones feels the pain that I've went through to miss you, losing you and boy, things arent getting better for both of us and I've been waiting, waiting for you all this while to fight for what you really wants and I'm tired of doing so cause it hurts me deeply and each time I see someone that resembles you, my heart sank cause boy, I love you I really do...

2010-05-22T15:01:00.004+08:00

Our deepest condolences to our dearest friend for the loss of his dearest father

Semoga arwah ditempatkan dgn orang2 yang beriman dan diampunkan segala dosa-dosanye, Insya Allah.

& to you ariff:

You know we love you bestie,& we are always here for you in good and bad times. (: cheer up bro!

keep going

2010-05-21T00:57:00.002+08:00

four days off from school meanwhile good news keep coming in, Alhamdulillah.

BE STRONG BRO!

2010-05-15T10:42:00.006+08:00

Ari's dad is currently suffering from stroke and sadly,he is in a critical state. Please pray for him, our small gestures could make a whole lot of difference. THANK YOU.

LAPPY HAPPY

2010-05-13T23:29:00.004+08:00

Thursday isn't bad at all, thou I'm down with sorethroat and massive headache, two happy thing driven my day that is-collection of my first virgin lappy and received my exemption letter which also means I'm only looking fwd for lectures on Monday which is 9-11AM and I'm done for the day. With lappy around, I shall stay in the library and mug for the upcoming tests (: and I just love TP's library esp their study rooms. Writing test tmr,I am done with all the research and let fate decides the rest. good night'

THE BEST MAFIA.

2010-05-13T00:32:00.006+08:00

*IMAGINE* walking around town, guy are all dress up while the girl wearing slippers, her back pack on with an oily face to go along after a long day yet HE still grab your hand, walking proudly hand-in-hand and whisper " it's the time we spend and the unconditional love that matter me most". *MELTING*

SELAMAT ULANG TAHUN!

2010-05-11T22:42:00.005+08:00

they, are my sunshine to a boring Monday. Thanks to zyla&iqah who sacrifice their time and accompany me to the NLB for my research till night. and entertain my silliest nonsense that one can never bare with. (;

HAPPY 21st risah!! May Allah swt blessed you will good health, happiness and strength in the unknown future (: I am deeply sorry for unable to attend your chalet but worries not, I will be there for your big day gf and I LOVE YOU!

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AND A BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO UNCLE FAHME!!! who claim he just turn "42"-please reverse it yourself, lol. Celebrated his bdae over at Seoul Garden with the usual kaki's except for Miza&Qin =( looking fwd to our next meet up aite babe. accompanied them to sheesha aft which BT before that since I'd to rush from the hosp I cldnt get a gift for fahme thank god there's time to source for one and so both faizal&myself decided to buy him an I-Mani perfume. Armani subtitute -___- bt it smells good thou'.

& once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U BOTH (: Hope u'd a great time which I bet you guys do.

MOODY

2010-05-07T21:17:00.002+08:00

my sensitivity has come to an extreme where it scares my loved ones. I am total moody on friday, I dont know why cause maybe Comm Skills are driving me nuts, and I can never see my internal feeling connecting to writing. It's not just about writing but lots' of history and economic thing that happens in today's world. I am lost in my own world, fighting with my own soul trying to LOVE language it just shucks. Maybe, my schedule is prettay hectic and that I live like an old women style -___- esp when my maternal grandma just admit in ICU. god, please help me. It seems that we gonna spent Mother's day in the hospital and talking abt mother's day there's CCN thing in TP helping the needy friends by setting up booth and sell their goods/ideas away and since it's mother's day they sell mostly for mother's so when they approach me asking me to write a message for my mom on pebbles, I hold my tears and cried once I step out of the school. IMY, happy mother's day love (:

GRAD 2010

2010-05-05T22:53:00.005+08:00

ITE- it's not the end for us but a stepping stone to our dreams (: we went thru alot be it personal or school but managed to stay strong as a class and bonded well thank you for the memories all& of course my warmest appreciation to the two of them below for always been together with me during the hard time esp when I lost my mom you girls are the key to my perseverance and yes, w/out them guess I will end up crying in the audi as late mom has always wanted to be in my grad but true enuf, she's watching from far (:

And Miza sayang ended her class late where I cldnt take a picture with her ;( but its okay see you on 8 May! Thanks for the call thou' *hugs*. And to add on to the remarkable time, it will be last grad I will be having with An aft 8 years of friendship. My bestie will be serving the country anytime soon while myself still pursue to her dreams, Insya Allah. For whatever things you guys are choosing in life after this, good luck from me and I will always remember every single one of you (:

BYSI

2010-05-02T21:43:00.003+08:00

MI NOVIA ME REGALO UN LIBRO'

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my saturday were super duper dope! town with the two girls and to our surprise, nt much crowd as expected. And so our shopping trip was smooth and steady and I'm so lovin' it. And to add on to the wonderful night, I finally bought my dress for grad! BYSI has never fail to impress me thou yest we'd a bad experience at their VIVO outlet BUT am really2 glad tampines staffs made up my day. That reminds me to write a complaint letter of their HORRIBLE salesperson! Thanks girls for the patience, time&wonderful day.

xoxo-yati

STRESS

2010-04-30T23:02:00.002+08:00

In the month of May, I shall declare myself a NERD cause there's so much to do for school, datelines for project mid test (scary!!), quiz and study study study. There's so much to absorb and I will be discipline as I'm having like 4 modules to study, -_____- . My classmates are awesome, each time there's break in between lesson we will see the clans scattered around in the library, studying. and I love TP's library especially the self-study corner!

& people if u've a free time, go watch the kite runner-AWESOME movie I've ever watch in my life. Hope am able to find the book in the library. goodnite readers, thanks for reading (;

"you know how to love make sure you know how to heal"

2010-04-26T20:39:00.003+08:00

saw this picture while browsing ila's fb. Feature ila (abang ee's fiance), lenny (fidzuan's fiance) and I just realized no snapshots with Aan,Mak(aan's mom) &the two lil cute kids (: Having such big family is a blessing, and that was the very first time I experience such an environment.

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While eating with Umi yesterday, she shared her experience as a women-mom-a friend-in law and etc and her advise gave a huge impact on me. " dont every rely too much on another person, you will never get to predict what will happen next", so true! yes, even if you'r married, women. there's more experience shared which embark my self-confidence, I shld thank that brave women, someone that has went tru' alot and suffer alot too but yet standing on her own feet with a smile. now, where's the brother? he has yet to come back from Batam! not fair, I need a holiday toooo!

ANALYSE.

2010-04-22T14:45:00.007+08:00

we've no class tdy since this week are all lectures and did I tell you how short my thurs&fri is? we've class from 9-11AM *somersault* I skipped sentosa outing today with the classmates since I seriously need the beauty sleep of mine. School are manageable so far, I'm praying hard that I cld be exempted from CSA, oh please I just cant click with office softwares you know? all modules I've either taken before or familarised except for the communication skills 1. communication, I thought wld link to speaking something like PR somehow or rather yeah but it focuses more on writing actually *muka stone satu*. I left writing since years ago and Mrs Thomas left us with no preferences to how she wants our writing to be like all she did was to give us this sentence "the earth is dying so what?" other than that I guess the ITE students are nt prone to homeworks yet, printing our own tutorials note. now I shall stop whining. TGIF tmr still I need to meet the course manager aft class, sourcing out for books and etc really hope my girls will end early for school SO that I cld meet them and de-stress (;

oh lets meet some of my classmates (* the two girls in orange aren't included)

Oh besides that I watched shutter Island with the classmates yest, yes the whole class (-_-) and we'r the noisest in the theather. I was concentrating on the movie and gt loss in the middle, trying hard to get the storyline bt still dumb on it so I call my help-line, qoqo to ask on the whole movie. tsk! BUT overall, the director are smart, make us confuse here and there but like Iqah say, the whole movie are actually trying to say " the main actor are the mad one, the patient and everyone in the scene were just acting just to remind him of the past" err, still I dont understand to why the exaggerating that far. neh mind, i shall stop asking everyone abt this.

I need to have more sleep now, kudos!

3 IN 1

2010-04-15T22:41:00.008+08:00

they put us high that night, the ppl in the audi was an awesome crowd, I laughed hard on the stupid jokes by the uncles and almost the whole audi sang together on every songs.-supportive maut like charly kept repeating "waduh, sungguh luar biasa". And the saat terakhir song made me in tears, it reminds me of my own dearest late mom. Still, thank you ST12, the estees are hoping to see you again in June, Insya Allah (:

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shopping trip@ Town with the the dearest babes
I've already miss going school with the girls ;(

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now dont talk about school,it drain me out but earlier on while walking down to TP as a student was a great feeling just like it's school song "Temasek's me, Temasek's you, we'r a team",something like that. my classmates are all from O-levels with single pointers/15 and below *faints* and their english are perfect both written and verbal, I'm gonna die! believe me, there's no "lah", "hor" or singlish when they line a sentence. Am seriously nt used to it la hor! to add on, there's only 3 Malays in the class -_______________-

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let's cut the crap, moving on to a more exciting news are the pictures of the events of both ST 12, shopping trip at ION with the fav girls and of coz' the long awaited trip walk to Macritichie has been fulfilled! we've successfully completed the WHOLE macritichie, been on HSBC tree top walk and we'r very proud of ourselves esp the boys who put their slippers on cause they thought we'r going for a picnic, tsk! Still it's a good theraphy for us(16.6 KM babe!!), and nothing could beat the naturally beautiful experience,far away from the busy city (: I wish I'd the time to explain the whole experience from the beginning to the end bt I badly need the sleep as I will be meeting the classmates at 8AM tmr. Budak2 O-level very discipline leh, nt like us very bo-chap! (; nah-night everyone!

IMY!

heart,mind&soul.

2010-04-12T09:24:00.005+08:00

"changes is good thou' as long you'r in the appropriate attire of muslimah im fine with it cause some guys they dont share what are meant only for them (;"

now that can made anyone in tears okay love!

CRAZY WEEK.

2010-04-09T11:27:00.003+08:00

I've been going tru' a hell week, clearing all the necessary procedure-tired! Thank god, abang is around to help me on the whole procedure and paid for my shopping trip (; ILYBRO! now lets hope everything will be clear soon, like ariff fav word "Insya Allah, Insya Allah". heh. As a treat for myself, will attend the ST 12 concert tmr& might be doing some retail theraphy with Nana and also, MACRITCHIE trip next week with my usual gang! *somersault*. As for today, will head to TP to sumbit the documents (except medical, asl la lambat sangaaaaat!) then to Alexandra Hosp for my excuse letter. Hope to meet zyla along the way, TGIF lovelies!

pssst: IMY,can?

CONGRATS (:

2010-04-05T15:29:00.006+08:00

I willingly volunteer myself to accompany Nana for ST12 concert this saturday thou' I'm not big fan of them,still I'm thrilled to hear few of my favourite songs!

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My maternal cousin finally got hitched with her man on 3rd April 2010, am really happy for her. When the solemnization is over I went to hugged&congratulate Kak Ina. her eyes were in tears, I know deep inside on her special day she's hoping for her late mom. I wld never dare to imagine myself in her shoes thou' sooner or later my turn will come, jangan pengsan lagi sudah la hor yati! (; Once again, congratulation kak Ina&Abang Zul may both of you blessed with a happy marriage and beautiful/gorgeous babies. Insya Allah (:

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I've always dream to wear this outfit on my wedding day, in pink!! I've seen few muslimah really look gorgeous in this tahap rolling2 on the floor! and someone just has to kill my dream by reminding me "boleh but aft 3 years then kite bukak topic alek, HAHAHAH" bencik!

DURBAR DUA.

2010-04-04T13:27:00.002+08:00

good luck you, I hope you will get into the finals. so that I can see you in the TV (:

THREE YEARS

2010-04-01T17:35:00.013+08:00

i remembered vividly, three years ago I shed tears of dissapointment when I received my O-level. I was in late mom's arm for two straight days crying badly for a reason. My heart sank when I got to know I will be in Nitec which means my future will be longer. to add on my pressure, most bombard me with the remarks " hah? da waste time kat O-level abe dapat Nitec" I feel like giving them a good punch on their face and tell them off "nobody wants this,including myself". Tell me who wants it? TrBt I prefer to smile&silence myself. I've tried my very best but my family who has always believe in me are very supportive and they'r with me for whatever decision I made. I was on my feet again when syatira, my dearest gf since primary school came into my life advised me to stand on my believes, my goals cause it aint possible with hardwork and determination one day I will achieve my dreams heck care to all who mock on us aft all they are nt the ones who deal with our future. True enough, on the day itself I'm back to my normal self for three years straight I've been working on my dreams just for a reason. I cut all the motivation column about ITE students who succeed in poly in a file and each time I taught of giving up this articles are my pillar to my goals (:

I've put lots of effort for one reason, besides making the family proud, I wish to achieve my dreams for my brother, my one and only kin that i've in this world now. Abang ended his education till Nitec and since we didnt come from a wealthy family and thus our parents could no longer support both of our education. Abang being the eldest gave in and start his working life at the very early stage. Abang worked very hard to earn extra income for my O's that's why I felt so bad dissapointing him at the end of the day. Still, Abang took time off fom his work and consoled me, telling me he's still proud of me and instead telling me to take private diploma, but I rejected the idea upon thinking of the cost fees. True, everything that happens for a reason. I chose to be in ITE where it changed my whole life to a better one meeting my dearest babengs and d'geng and all of us motivates every hour, every second. In my ITE life Abang who supported me tru out esp in terms of financially and I told myself I try not to dissapoint him this time. Aft 3 solid years, with no regrets I've completed both Nitec& H.nitec, it wasn't an easy journey especially the lost of my everything but Allah swt gave me a good bunch of friends and lecturers and most importantly strength to cont with my life.

Again, Abang rafi made a BIG sacrifice in his life. Apart from their personal reasons, he called off his wedding and the major reason is to support me again in my studies. I'm just speechless and once stop him but he still insists. it happens even before my postings result were out and it really worries me thou he claimed "its okay" if I cldnt get in. When 1st April comes at 2PM our life changed, the day that I've been waiting for 3 years I got myself into Temasek Poly, my dream school&also for the family. I've finally made abang proud, and something small in return for all the sacrifice made. I thanked him for being such a good brother to me, I cldn't ask for more ;(

To sum up everything, life isn't as simple as it seems. Failure will happens once in our life, but believe me when you'r in positive mind it will change to a success in time of future dont think how long it will takes just plan how long it will take to achieve, Insya Allah. (: Thank you Allah, friends and family for having a strong faith in me. I really hope, I could survive in the upcoming three years. AMIN.

GOOD NEWS.

2010-04-01T17:35:00.007+08:00

I just don't know where to start but am seriously OVER THE MOON for my result. I gt into TP and I broke down heavily cause first, late mom has always dream I gt into TP (cause she said TP has a nice view&caught her attention) second, she has always wish that I cld get hold of a Diploma. If you were still around ma, this is the best birthday gift for you and I know I will get hugs&kisses from you in return but its okay, I know you'r proud of me. & congrats to D'geng for securing a place in Poly, wa banyak bangga hor! It's April the second, used to be your birthday. ;( No longer sneaking in to ur room and hide my bdae wishes for you on the wardrobe still, I will always shower you with my endless prayers. I miss you ma, hope you'r now at the best place smiling towards us. AMIN.

& aft I had my prayers at ghufran, rushed down to TM and meet the belo clan without Iqah we will made up okay geng? supposed to watch movie but since its crowded we decided to go for supper:good food, seriously& lot's of craps. misteri jam 12 in faiz car which I asked him to switch off! hahaha apepon, Thanks Faiz :D we shall have our one day drive all over Singapore pretty soon! and I will have a nong2 update pretty soon.

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p.s: selamat hari jadi mak, semoga ditempatkan dgn orang2 yang beriman. Insya Allah (:

PASSED!

2010-03-31T16:09:00.003+08:00

GPA maintain still, Alhamdulillah all of the clan passed (:

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tomorrow will be another nightmare awaiting for us as for today, I just hope everything will be a happy ending and pray that everything will be fine during our last meeting with kak Julie's family. May both parties redha with the final decision made. Once we'r done there tonight, we gonna get home and plan on our future, life has to go on after all. And it sucks big time having to tell the relatives with regards of the bad news, tears shed shocking face upset them-true enuf' sorry seems to be the hardest word. Well once we'r done with that, I'm going to off my handphone and sleep, only to wake up at 1.50PM since I hate waiting for long as result will be out at 2PM! for whatever happens tommorrow, I will accept with an open heart. I'm prepared for either full-time work or full-time studies. Salam semua!

SAYA&AWAK.

2010-03-30T01:16:00.006+08:00

"Adek, tuari kau keluar sape yang fetch kau kat bawah block?"- Abah
"kawan adek, kenape bah?"-me
"kau ade matair eh? abah tau tu bukan kereta faiz ?"-abah
"Oh, yang abah nampak tu, name de__ kite kawan je"- me
"kau jangan ade matair2 dulu, abang kan baru lepas kecewa kesian"-abah
"berape lame baru adek boleh ade matair eh bah?"-me
" dalam dua tiga tahun lagi, okay la tu"-abah
"HUH!!"-me

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my result is a matter of days *scary*

NUNU&THE MAKCIKS!

2010-03-28T01:57:00.005+08:00

aft school has officially ended for us, we hardly see each other like how we used to. God knows how much I miss them thou we do keep in touch with each other every single day via phone or msn but it just ain't the same. take for example, when I finally meet Iqah today we hugged each other the moment I saw her and same goes when we meet lilo then at her downtown. we just have SOOOOO many stories to tell each other. &this how much I miss my other girls too ;( esp my dearest miza, its been a while since I last meet her and we has lots of stories to share when we msn few days ago. Boy, I wish I'd more than 24 hours in a day. For now, I just hope I cld be there for both abang and kak julie thou' they'r no longer a fiance but kak julie has been with our family for a long time, we miss her badly. & it aint easy for me too to split my time for family, friends and my cousins. Again I wish to have more than 24 hours in a day can? thank god Abang A is busy with his dikir& don't ask much of my time,:D

this little girl made my tiring day-nunu! all this while, her cik ila ( lilo!) been sharing on her antiques and finally I see her in person. felt like giving her my kisses on her chubby cheeks! She's just too adorable and cute thou' she hardly entertain us but Iqah especially are so smart with kids that she agreed finally! to take a photo with us! I kept laughing on her "relac joyah" expression when she accidently did something wrong, ie: drip her coke on the floor! lols. Nunu dear, u really made my day (: lilo thanks for inviting us over dear!

REQUEST.

2010-03-26T12:52:00.004+08:00

Some guessing games are being played btween myself and people around me. most assume Mr.A was Ayub, my ex-byf just because I commented on his FB wall and we'r in talking terms, that's total bullshit! hahah. For the guys, like sam&gang they've already surrender their white flag and once told me "k tak pasal ar geng, kau nak simpan2.. janji kawin jemput sudah!" Isnt it easier this way? (; will be spending the weekend at lilo chalet, yeay!

WHEN TIME IS HIGH.

2010-03-24T12:32:00.007+08:00

I am really grateful that now, kak lynn has knew everything about Abang and kak Julie. I've been handling this on my own and it really kill my souls. All I cld do is to cry and share with the closest but now every burden I had are shared with the relatives. My closest ones are right,I'm far too young to handle this and if I cont' to face this all alone, high possibilities I'm ending my life at IMH. As much as I hate to trouble them, I'd to cause I foresee their relationship cld no longer work and if this is the best, we've to accept after all reality is better than dream.

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I was touched and thankful that thou' late mom isn't around her dearest niece are there to take over her responsibilities. Kakak is such a great guardian to us, she knew how weak I was and always been there for us. Last week when I was out for dinner with kakak, I happily told her about Mr.A I thought she would "serious?!! oh I'm so happy for you" you know that kind of thing but it turned the other way round. she was so angry and advise me to stop. At first I dont quite understand to her actions but I was touched and finally understand when she told me "dek, kakak da janji mak akan jage adek abang sampai krg kawen." I realized it's aint easy to be a guardian and I dont want her to face another burden instead make her proud, Insya Allah.

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People start to smell something and text us over what they saw BUT we've decide to leave the matter hanging without making any declaration yet. We've the same mindset on this (: It's too early to say it esp when my family is facing the greatest challenge now and yes, to convince kakak is another thing. & it really irritate me alot on unecessary comments about everything.

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And the saddest part of all, my dearest cousin too has finally face another break up. Hearing her tears yesterday made me want to be with her and hugged her tight. Another breakup aft her engagement failed is really something crazy, I really feel her pain. Lots of enermous stories been heard making me afraid of relationships, honestly. All I hope, nana brother kak julie will face this with an open heart, accept all possibilities with one strong mind. I love you people, and kak J even IF this relat won't work I will still regard you as my elder sister. I felt the pain too.

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I would appreciate if there's no Q&A's being asked regarding all the matter above.

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& thank you, girls kak lynn and Mr.A for going tru all this with me, for the ears and all. I really hope the rough journey will end soon, Insya Allah (:

EVOL

2010-03-23T14:16:00.002+08:00

am still nervous just like on our first meet ...

ROHANA BTE GAUS.

2010-03-22T11:41:00.002+08:00

"dont judge the book by it's perot!"-courtesy of cousin nana who made me laughed the whole day of sunday. It was whole load of fun on her sleepover esp the part where she cried in the middle of ong bak 2 when I was exchanging msg with arip. Alalala, ne la susahnye ye kalau bercinta dgn orang Malaysia. Cinta diantara benua (; nevertheless, I love you la de!

DISSAPOINTED.

2010-03-19T14:08:00.007+08:00

As the close ones were over the moon abt the recent news. i was waiting for abang to reach home yest nite, all gear up to share the happy story but it turn the other way round was in tears the whole night when I received a call he will nt be going home. I want him to be the first person to know abt yest bt now, I cant be bothered to share. gth.

DOWN THE MEMORY LANE

2010-03-19T14:08:00.005+08:00

release of exam result will be on :

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Saved 25 bucks cause my memory card tricked me yet again. I just have to work the strategy out next time(; which I thank god I didnt lost any files. So since I'm bored to death and that feeroz has yet to give us a ring on the job, I shall make a flashback before Iqah's bdae celebration. we had few eatery place in mind and we did source out afew after school and one of it was sour puss located at Esplanade.It's a mixture of both local and western delight, serve delicious gigantic burgers with fries to go along but we don't think it worth the money, kan la? esp when Iqah love traditional food (I suggested zyla to bring her to Hajjah maimunah,lols) so sour puss we'd to delete off from the list and also, carousel. When we have our own stable job, please girls let's hit the carousel okay cause it's damn tempting!highlight was the perfume that zyla was holding,it's a new brand sold by a salesman while we'd our lunch at the cafe. we were impressed when he said "this ar can last 8 hours, you try.. if not give me a call and I will refund you girls back" ^ ^. His next sentence went "this price cost *$25(est, i forgt the price) and the next one I give you for free". wah! impressive sales strategy! so we bought and it was really good! it lasted for hours& it's better than my Juicy Couture which I bought at 70+! cheat feeelings. other than that, we made a trip to our fav place to print out her collage frame where I bumped the ol' school mate-patricia! I took 40 mins to remember her name, and the best part of all "eh, you still with ayub ar?" ahah, I'm just used to it,now(; It was a good experience running here and there to source out for qah's celeb but at the same time, squeeze some hours aft it to mug for the exams. I just miss asking my girls when me met every morning, "geng, balek skola nak gi ane?".

KETIKA CINTA BERTASBIH 2

2010-03-18T15:04:00.006+08:00

I maybe a bit too late for this movie, but this particular movie won my tears! more than I shed for meraung-new boys movie. Even grandma, cried with me. hahah. A very touching Islamic Love (: I love the part where Anna sujud aft Azzam agreed and happy that the girl, kiayi recommended Azzam to was his own admirer all along,(part 00.35) I repeated it for 5 times& another part that made laughed "kenape abah nggak bilang anna sudah bernikah lagi? " kok, nak furqan cuma tanya mana Anna ". yati likes this, (; and 1st april is coming real soon, the day that will decide our future.

talking about love.

2010-03-17T02:03:00.003+08:00

i don't need someone who is good looking or those good at words/actions I just need someone who understand my priorities towards my family,can click with abah& someone who can accept that I am just PHOBIA with cats and don't mock me for that. I feel like giving a good punch when I heard a guy telling his gf's off "eh u besar ke kucing tu besar?!" at a coffee shop few weeks ago. I was with abah who shoo-ed the cat away and tried to protect me suddenly it strikes me, I got a loving brother&abah to take care of me if I were to be in that girl shoes tinggal kan pun bayek noh! my first few quest to abang A made him laughed out loud, "eh u got cats or nt?" He claimed, im the weird-est girl he ever known -_____-

MOVIE BUFF-ER?

2010-03-15T21:29:00.006+08:00

Dad and I have been a movie freak lately. starting from his ninja warriors which I had to search high and low, thank god faiz has it, we end up buying more DVD's esp when faiz&cousin tend to borrow us with good movies and now, both abah and myself starting to buy DVD's to watch on our free time. tsk! I'm done with Adnan sempit, Santau and Ketika cinta bertasbih2 left with merantau warrior&zombieland&pisau cukur. I do realize I love going movies lately, tsk! so much of saving up ur dollars, Haryati (;

IQAH 20CENT

2010-03-13T20:22:00.004+08:00

Part One: Few days before Iqah's bdae. we'r having exam our exams preparation yet we believe nothing is impossible and we girls decided to proceed for a small preparation for the little girl which was held at Manhattan Fish Market-service was 10 thumbs up and aftwic sat by the river and surprise her with a frame of us. the second piece she had for her bdae. Now girl that shows our faces are just too cute that you NEED to have both soft&hard copy tau qah. lols

Part Two: Iqah fall for our trick yet again. Bdae girl loves nature so much so both zyla and myself planned way before hand on this trip which we really hope we put a BIG smile on the belated bdae girl and Alhamdulillah we really did. Bdae girl wanted to visit St John's Island so much and we made her dream come true. 2nd, Iqah is a very UNIQUE by nature so it was triple hard for us to get appropriate gift for her. she doesnt like watch,wallet, necklace and love cheap things so being a nature lover and a girl who loves play KITE we bought her a big kite which this time, we succesfully manage to bring up the kite. Zyla wrapped it just like a fishing rod which she really believe us. banyak betol tipu sunnat kite eh lilo! Our first kite which Iqah bought at $3.50 near Pasir Ris beach was torn in few second but worries not qah, this time the quality is better.

We'r quite lucky that our trip to St John's Island was $15 and it goes to two places first, to our key destination and at 2.45pm SHARP when the boat picked us up we were given 1hr to explore Kusu Island. we were shocked but totally HAPPPPPYYYYYYY! Honestly, there's nothing much at the Island but we girls just have crazy things to do like swimming with a sarong since the yours truly doesnt bring any pants. Believe me, u cldnt resists the pool! (; we didnt explore the other half of St John's since uncle has warned me and all were girls but definately when we bring the guys along for the second time, we shall explore the whole place! we thanked kak julie for sacrificed her day leave and accompany us to this trip, thank god there's an adult with us and I cld go for the trip cause my brother is just paranoid to leave us girls to an ISLAND. we really had increadible time and bonding, and next trip will be a nature walk. Another month of planning (:

and so here's a dedication to u gf:

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First, both me and zyla really hope u had an awesome 20th and I believe ur loved ones too did mark ur 20th a memorable one. We've finally reach the end in our studies together and has seen each other lowest point together. We know you'r strong love and you could pick every single obstacle with a brave heart sometimes when you really think you cldn't take any of it worries not, zyla&myself will always lend you our shoulders to cry on,our ears to listen and hands to hug you.

we'r really happy for you to find the one who accept for who you'r& we will always pray for your health, happiness and strength. so qah, thou' zyla and myself may not be gorgeous like Angelina Jolie, power like kak Siti Nurhaliza or romantic like maslindah we love you endlessly girl,

xoxo,

haryati feat azila (;

&below is my fav picture!

LIFE ISN'T EASY U KNOW?

2010-03-10T17:40:00.002+08:00

making full use of my four days:

Wednesday: sleep,rest and ironing (:
Thursday: day with aunt murni&family
Friday: an island trip with my girls
Sat: call Mr.Feeroz, visit grandma at Boon Lay and doing resume
Sunday: Strictly with the family.

I came to realize that I dont have to iron my school uniform anymore and it will only be Abah's uniform so I shall buy more tops that kill the hassle to iron. (; other than that, this coming friday if it doesnt rain my girls and I will be exploring some places in Singapore,too bad the guys unable to join us. I need to work and earn some cash cause this days, money ran out before we even realise kan?

I still have yet to decide if poly is the best option for now or working full-time maybe I shall give time to myself when I reach the island plus, I need to go library and borrow books on sales (: &abang wedding is driving me nuts. I've attended lotsa' of wedding and from our eyes it's the same old routine but the planning behind the scenes are totally one crazy ride every minute is precious and once you'r behind time of the plan, that's it! did I just scare you? HAHA,scary but true unfortunately. I want to go IT show!

GDBYE ITE!

2010-03-09T23:30:00.006+08:00

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I thank god for meeting them in my life,thou we may not be together for that long Alhamdulillah my friendship with the Nitec clan still stay strong and hope for the H.nitec too. I place late mom photo at my landyard today and once I'm done with the exam, I stared at her picture and smiled. Your girl is stepping to the next stage of life&I really miss going home aft exam and you will run to me with the quest "amcm exam adek?". Things flies fast. I shall enjoy my holidays. hooraaay! oh btw zyla says hello! hahah. nah-night!

Alhamdulillah(:

2010-03-08T14:36:00.003+08:00

was hungry and no mood to study yest night, online with qoqo when Aan text to offer some pizza, the best part because it's nearly 1am he sent at the doorstep and while mugging with the oh sungguh sedap pizza, I managed to complete two units. Thanks bestie!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QAH!

2010-03-07T15:31:00.006+08:00

"my two girls has seen the weakest part of me, thank you for always being there"
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the meet up session with the second boss was shucks cause my jobscope is basically doing everything in the small office and I thank god, I'm working with my bestie which hopefully it turns the whole nightmare into a heaven workplace (: my bosses are male but VERY demanding and I'm looking forward to this thou if those options still open for us. Oh and another thing, happy bdae Qah sayang am so happy for the expect the unexpected surprise. (; u know I know,people don't know. that reminds me of Mr.Hari stories with us yesterday over breakfast, super hilarious kids!

now three cheers for mr sunshine! (;

SETTLED(:

2010-03-05T13:01:00.003+08:00

since I will be inviting Faiz Belo(the only male reader)here again for the second time, recent pic shld be deleted! hahah. and faiz, please eh get ur confirmation done (:

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anways, the bb and I has sort things out last night in person. I feel good saying everything out, same goes to him thou' I have to fight for the ans for 30 mins! it aint easy for us since we hate to drag a situation but then I decided this is somethin that worsen and I've to voice it out,till he said "kite dua ne ego eh ti". tau rupenye, that's the reason why to everything that happens bb. (:

DILEMMA

2010-03-01T23:21:00.007+08:00

I gt a very good job offer even before I graduate, I thank god for the rezeki (: I love the jobscope, the environment and everything

BUT

My other half is telling me to wait for my poly postings.

Can I have both? ;(

till the end (:

2010-02-28T21:15:00.005+08:00

sleeping around,cheating (be it u'r married or single), flirting etc are no longer rare thing that we hear infact I'm getting sick and tired of reading those articles and stories around which made me stop and wonder if there's still guys who seems to be like our fathers *shrugs*.

I watched titanic yesterday, I've never been a fan of eng movies u know maybe because I don't quite understand what they said or have no interest. Unlike brother who was sent to PAP kindergarten back then, he's more keen with english books,movies or anything gt to do with english while yours truly was sent to madrasah in her kindergarten and was exposed with malay books so therefore, my interest are more to malay locals movies and cintan cintun novels (; but slowly I gt the urge to brush up on my vocab and wat not and finally has the INTEREST on watching eng movies which leads to titanic yest, thumbs up! i dont mind watching for the second time which of coz' abang and kak julie was there to tell the whole story in the midst of the movie.

I kinda of sad to leave for my AOA lessons or rather shld I say the lecturer, Mr Ng! We admire his way of teaching and passion (: he never fails and gave up hope on us. the only lecturer in my 3 years of ITE who came to us aft each single lesson and ask "you understand or nt?please, ask questions leh" his sense of humour are terrific and his plannings made me love AOA. I've this fear of doing this module as my skills in designing are below "average" but Mr Ng assure us that it's going to be an easy journey. He actually inject us with "do things ahead so that u gonna have more time for other module" in our souls, in simpler notes stop procastination which is very true as our major project runs smoothly and we submitted way earlier than the dateline! still remember his advise and his tot's of Ngee Ann Poly&other poly's even if I could not be in poly, his advise insya allah will be the stepping stone to what I will do next. one of his uniqness are-he will stop and think to every quest u ask. lols

we will definately miss you Mr.Ng esp ur favourite student above (:

YATI IS BACK!

2010-02-27T16:18:00.004+08:00

watched Dear John,finally! the storyline may be pretty draggy&lembab but I shld say one of the best love story I've ever watched that reminds me, of watching Titanic tonight! I've never watch full Titanic. HAHAHA! only know the part "u jump, I jump". kental-mak-lodeh like that.

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on the other note, Alhamdulillah this year I could participate myself with the maulid last week at the Singapore Expo and recite it at home yesterday. The inner peace aftwhich was subhanallah, undescrible but it's quite a waste for unable to join faiz yesterday at ma'arif since he claimed they've malay translation. was super tired from school,Insya Allah one day am sure we will join you (: syukran jazilan for the offer anw!

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and and and, yeay! my hshold chores is done&over with thanks to kak julie&now, I can go for for some retail theraphy *dancing arnd*

IF ONLY U KNOW.

2010-02-26T00:28:00.004+08:00

How am I going to tell you? what should I do to make u share your feelings? I maybe at fault, hurting you unintentionally but at the very least could you please tell me my faults and stop keeping me in the dark. It kills me softly and I really miss the way we are cause for whatever reasons you gave me that night was lame! no matter how busy u used to be, u cld still find lil time to ask my whereabouts what not, u'r just making reasons to defend yourself and finding the best ways to hide everything. thumbs up (: go ahead and entertain your BIG FAT EGO. I hope someday you will know to why I lied and understand that I cldnt choose between you two. HE has always been by my side, sharing my problems be it with the family or personal but where were you when I need you the MOST? you'r nt there infact you were werking at the later part of the day when I lost my other half. HE was there for me for all you know and help me till mak's 100th day. where were you? did u ever attend even one of the tahlil?what were ur reasons?WORKING. Who bring me to late mak's place when I miss her alot? who listens to me when I had a huge problem abt abah?who went the extend to help me out? Yes I will be the selfish soul if I chose to lose a friend whom have been with me for all along, I chose to go with the flow and will always treat you both as a good friend of mine. I really miss you,bb bt if this were meant for us I will face the music&please stop hurting me cause you made enuf.

GDBYE AOA.

2010-02-25T15:46:00.004+08:00

officially no more AOA lessons from yesterday which means no school for today and I slept till 3PM neglacting the household. it's been a long time since I last left this bad habit(;

IMY

2010-02-24T22:48:00.004+08:00

Both me and zyla manage to chiong on Public Relations for few hours in the starbucks and closed our books when the clock almost strikes 4 which we ended up gossiping for a while when suddenly a lady,shld be the manager who just reported in for work came up to the girls next to us and said "sorry girls, u'r nt allowed to study here bla bla bla". we shld thank our lucky stars eh? (; bt if that is so, why the other workers or the manager who on duty for few hours back didn't stop us from studying? well, ngada-ngada LA. *immitate alvin*e

and abah seems to be out of mind to buy some products for whitening or sort,tell me how can I not nag? now let's catch up with my girls before they really taught I fainted, hahah. lights off!

someday we gonna accept this.

2010-02-23T21:49:00.003+08:00

two more weeks and we can finally bid gdbye to ITE, endure yati&my sayang (:

& in the midst of mugging we manage to catch two movies this week. I cldnt believe that today I actually stood for 2 and half hours for My Name Is Khan-and I'm nt a terrorist. rolled of tears at some parts, boost up confidence song to go along really drama mama but nt the typical,thank god overall zyla and myself who ain't bollywood lover manage to stay awake and concentrate! can't wait for dear john this thursday, hopefully it's another awesome movie.

& Iqah Arif gave me a good advise " its good to release your relationship aft 6 months cause that is when they will show their true colours". but nana said, that only applies to friends and nt family coz' they shld know even before I accept the proposal. *gulp*

LOVE

2010-02-20T11:49:00.002+08:00

few days back has been the teary times mixture of both happiness and dissapointment.

I did fulfill momma dreams of doing tahlil at the masjid last thursday and it was so warm,hurtful but at the same time relieved. God knows my feelings when the Imam mention momma's name I cldnt control myself at that point of time, I broke down. Bt aft that night,it seems that my courage and strength came back which leads to the urge of visiting Hubbi at CGH who is now still at a critical state. Aft momma passed away at CGH, I had trauma to step in but I realized sooner or later my loved ones might be there so with zyla's around we visited him. I don't have to share the whole experience being there again, it just shucks ;( what I concentrate most was visiting hubbi who was place just beside late mom's used to be. & hubbi's heartbeat fell yest which creates a lil chaos, tears from his family and us too thank god it was another false alarme coz' if it's really gonna happen that time, am sure the trauma will nt go away from me. Bt Alhamdulillah hubbi pulled tru& thanks la for cancel plan ur plan with ur parents just because u want to be there for me. *hugs*

Aft yesterday I realized how it means everyone arnd me, cherish them before it's too late. what lies ahead of us still unknown sometimes things happen thou we dont ask for it. [:

26

2010-02-16T14:19:00.004+08:00

life seems to be like the storm, thinking far for the benefit of both family and myself. thou' it worn me out at times but every smiles and thanks from family&relatives made me feel real goood. so that's why, aft much thinking and opinion I decided to take up vitamins, hahah. something that I hate to do but now, no more must be discipline or else I will always complain to that someone every now and then "penaaaaaaat"(;

busu wants me to settle down or engaged aft my studies which is like "huh?!" since she worried much of abang will move out after his marriage and abah will be at work so at least, someone whom I can rely on cld take care of me if you know, touch wood, I fall sick. I cld only laugh and nod wif Insya Allah. seems to be a joke of the day gitu lor. I shall keep it as a surprise okay?

alrite, I need to meet d'geng tmr. pr presentation is tmr!

GXFC!

2010-02-13T21:38:00.003+08:00

In life, obstacles are always rolling to us but believe in Allah swt and pray for the solutions face Insya Allah our heart&Iman are strong enuf to face the music (: this is something that I toodle in the personal diary creating my own quote of inspiration to make myself better. At times, the journey may be a lil rough for me but I know I will pull tru' it, Insya Allah. I shld smile&believe things happen for a reason and the more you think it will just worsen urself and I decided to do something that I enjoyed while balancing the problems out. when family and beloved frens are arnd, nothing is impossible.

&qah, am sure your mom will be fine soon we'r here for you HON.

oh before that, this sharing that I heard from one of the local radio really hit me hard "pakaian tu adalah salah satu iman kite, jika pakaian itu salah dimana terletaknye Iman kite?" something that I keep thinking of for the whole day, a good sharing with the cousin aftwic. I love cousin!

Happy CHINESE NEW YEAR!

xoxo

haryati bte hoderi [;